Its not worth it....

Darienna · Post time 2-9-2007 02:16 PM

Salam,
Dunno what else to say...just need to let it out...

Have you ever been in situation where you抳e given your very best but still not good enough for others?
I dunno what else to do. If I have a power, I just wanna freeze the world for a few seconds so that I can catch my breath and keep up with others.
How do I feel rite now?
Too tired, disappointed with my self caused I almost can抰 cope anymore卹eally at the verged of let go everything. STOP!!!!
I really need to sort this out. PRONTO!
I seems to be in a losing battle with my self and work.
I dunno why suddenly my boss doing this to me, keep on pushing me like this. At first I thought its just me suddenly not giving a good performance anymore, but when the others also agreed that this is too much匢 finally realized it. It seems that my silence makes him push me to the edge卙e knows I will do it anyway no matter what卛ts all because of my ego and pride saying that what ever it takes I can do it匢 forgot that I抦 just a human being!
I admit this pressures is too much for me to hang in anymore..I抦 losing it..need to find my solution soon. Crying every nite for this stupid battle won抰 make sense anymore匱hough my thinking is saying that its ok I still can cope with all these. Unfortunately, my physical told me the opposite