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4.sept.2018
Pagi tadi dila, lepas hantar anak...rush balik and masak..8pagi dah pang pung...bayam sup and asam pedas ikan and pasta untuk son
Dah siap....rush mandi and ke seksyen7, bla bla bla jumpa client pastu patah balik amek anak and rush ke putrajaya send document dgn anak sekali angkut...
Macam best je life bila busy so takde masa nak pikir yg remeh temeh...but i tak selalu busy pun....thursday cousin sanding pulak and my job hias...and i pulak jenis tak suka hias beli beli i suka guna apa yg ada...simple je and murah tak payah bazir...so ingat nak rembat bunga mak ni and angkut...untuk buat deco main table...hahah ada masa i tepek
kalau dulu i pernah cat dinding opiis..mural painting....sampai skrg ada...and boss suka...heheheh i rasa banyak benda yg i missed out...if only i boleh patah balik.
Tapi tak boleh so nak tak nak i kena redha...so what i do now...i nak anak i dapatkan semua yang dia nak in life...hopefully allah izinkan. Kalau ada anak pompuan kan best..nengok org dpt baby ni mcm best tapi...hahaha mcm dah x larat pulak..
Ada ke yg baca diari sengal i ni???
Hopefully i will have a smooth week and same goes to everyone! |
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Adaaa, akak suka baca diari u, seronok |
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Ada, nak tulis diari tapi tak minat  |
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Post time 5-9-2018 11:03 PM
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Tadi pagi bila i baca baris akhir tu...ya allah melting hati ni. I think i fell in love dah..tapi tak berani nak ckp..i paling takut jatuh hati ni...sbb fobia nanti jatuh terduduk. Yes, i am in love. But i will just stay calm for now. I xboleh buat apa selain pray d best.
Masa last i jumpa, i panik...i duduk kat Starbuck and termenung. I cried cuz i rasa guilty i am in love ..i break my own promise. huhuhuhuhu that is life la......u break d rules and u set ur own rules....so hadapla...but again...im just gonna stay calm...hahahah berapa kali i duk ckp nak stay calm... insyaallah
when was the lasti time someone saying i like u ke i love u ke or i miss u ke? or have u all say something nice to others? |
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Adila, sorry menyampuk, i baca cerita u dr mula. u dah jumpa seseorang ke? Alhamdulillah... |
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Post time 10-9-2018 02:59 AM
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Its almost 3am. Baru nak tido ...jenuh massage kaki mak tadi sbb krem..hahaha i xsure eja betul ke tak ni. Baru habis lepak dgn cousins and aunty and uncle seronok citer..setahun pun boleh kira berapa kali jumpa.
Then, i rasa sedih..asyik sedih je i ni...tapi bukan main happy depan my relatives..nak kenen i dgn si a si b. tapi semua i tolak. Ya allah, permudahkanla ya allah hari hariku ya allah. Kau kuatkanla hati ni...doa yg baik baik....nak tido dah sambil teringat semuanya and sebak lagi...macam bintang airmata betul! |
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Post time 10-9-2018 12:12 PM
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baru sedar and ok few lines what's ap yg membosankan dari boss. weiii cuti laaaa... decide untuk buat xfaham and enjoy my holiday.
anak pun behave so good n kemas homestay n today nk gi makan seafood n mybe watch cinema...
relatives been asking..bila nk kawen...tahun depanla...so to cut the topic...i iakan... hahaha so now everyone is thinking i nk kawen tahun depan.... huhuhu.. .i guess they are look forward...i really have no clue and i just hope..n hopefully...sapalah yg xnk...
one more day to have a good break |
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Post time 10-9-2018 10:54 PM
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today my aunt dtg kat i...dila klu ada apa apa wassap aunty or uncle ok.
eh kenapa??
ye laa...awak tu kemana mana seorang. lama sangat sorang..takut ada yg ikut
uish ..suspen je....to me Allah mengatasi segalanya. Insyaallah im ok aunty
cuma yes, i selalu rasa sedih or kadang tu sepi...tapi xboleh la i ikutkan hati...i ada anak yg comel....kerja yg elok wlu bosan huhuhu ada parents ada family. Nak or tidak i kena bersyukur. Malam ni nk tengok movie hantu kat rumah...i takut i lbh tutup mata dari nengok...
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Post time 11-9-2018 10:24 AM
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Post time 18-9-2018 09:49 PM
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eh lupa nak update....been busy
anak i cakap...mama i cry from the inside mama!!!!
whyyyy ???? i need u mama... nangis dia sbb mama dia selalu takde...
sabar ya syg....be tough ok. terpaksa hati keras biarkan anak nangis
hmmmmm.... alhamdulillah, balik dah ..tpi i risau anak i notty dahhhh and asyik ckp my father will be proud of me tak mama? damn!!
anak i buat i marah....tapi i kena paused sat...let me think what i shud say to my son |
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Post time 19-9-2018 08:17 AM
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Edited by adila39 at 19-9-2018 03:42 PM
19.9.2018
Tengah pikir nak pegi opis ke tak. macam malas pun ya.
Then about my son, i dah explained semalam...and again i keep telling him..who is there for him...its always ur mama. If i boleh i nak je kawen so adalah new dad...at least just to feel tho bukan ayah kandung. How can i let my son in touch with his dad.
He is iresponsible and i rasa he dont deserve to have a dad like him.
Hardly to admit, it is a biggest mistake yg i buat to get my self involved.
Kalau nk recall what happened 8 yrs ago
.. now i jauh beza...i was very depressed and low self esteem macam2 la...nak bercakap pun i tergagap... how it impacts me.. But alhamdulillah i push myself and realised xguna i nak ruined myself over him
Sooooo I wont and will never let him have an easy way to reach myson
Hmmm xmaulah ckp pasal ni.
pepagi tadi dpt text, al fatihah to ur late dad. don't be sad..ur prayers will always d best. semoga arwah ditempatkan org yg beriman.
i wish i can visit, but it will be awkward maybe and i pun xmau menyusahkan, so I pray for him too.
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adila39 replied at 5-9-2018 11:03 PM
Tadi pagi bila i baca baris akhir tu...ya allah melting hati ni. I think i fell in love dah..tapi ta ...
Falling in love is scary. Tp promise urself not to fall in love is stupid really. U love to be loved. U cantik, baik, caring etc. Such a waste kalau u x dpt convey all ur good deeds to others.
Go ahead fall in love. Makes the world a better place.
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Edited by adila39 at 19-9-2018 06:43 AM
ooo mata i masuk habuk. I ni actually penyedih orangnya...hahahah
yes, how can they break my heart so bad, i wish i boleh throw stones or what ever to them or cursed but i know i will never do that. It is suffering and scarry...bila recall how kind i am to them to all. sadly true.
they really are break my heart badly. Weird part all of them still nak in touch with me and ask how am i doing. Apoligizing and so on. But why now and why hurting me? kan? so why i shud bother. Semua no dorang i deleted and blocked. End story
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Post time 21-9-2018 07:40 AM
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Selamat pagi.
Okay dah feel better xpenat dah.
Back to yesterday, bila situasi cemas kita mmgla cepat lupa apa nak buat. imagine bila ada emergency org kena heart attack and u panik? i hope i did the right thing, i cari gtn...gtn is a medication utk redakan pressure heart attack i and letak bawah lidah...kalau nak explain details i pun xmahir...but i tau gtn ni utk redakan chest pain. So u all pun boleh take note..parents ke yg ada heart issues...must have some knowledge ubat apa yg sesuai etc. Then i buat cpr...ni i lupa dahh how but i nekad je lah....syg magsa xdpt diselamatkan. I rasa we do that for almost 15mins kot...dr sampai and continue and still no breathing....terdengar i ayat...dia i need to go toilet i nak buang air...wlu xjelas apa dia cakap dah...body pun dah mengeras and mata keatas...sadly he passed away. Yang sedih bila his dad sampai and cried....his dad is old ....hmmm dah ajal kata my dr. U did well dila...i feel sad still...anyway so moral of this....kenalah appreciate life and jaga kehidupan kita..
I rasa lepas ni i nak tukar content my diary. More to motivational la kot....i ble motivate diri i and yg sudi baca and hmmm yaaaaa....
Happy working! |
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gtn tu apa doctor?
ubat sapu ke? 
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Post time 23-9-2018 12:30 AM
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bangcak replied at 22-9-2018 03:53 PM
gtn tu apa doctor?
ubat sapu ke?
glyceril trinitrate tablet - an affective medication untuk chest pain.
i google je nama full tu. |
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sapa ada sakit jantung elok gi melaka.
ada pakar urut jantung.
lepas dgr info dari sorang kawan
(adiknya dah appointment bypass lg seminggu)
lepas urut, doktor check dah ok. takyah bypass.
then, i gi ber3 ngan member.
tukang urut tu bleh tau, sapa ada poblem,
sapa yg sedang mkn ubat, sapa yg takde poblem.
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Post time 23-9-2018 04:53 AM
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bangcak replied at 22-9-2018 04:42 PM
sapa ada sakit jantung elok gi melaka.
ada pakar urut jantung.
hebatnya...agak pelik juga sbb jantung, if jantung very straight fwd ..but bagusla if boleh cure bypass... |
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doktor nih kat spital mana? .....nak dtg wat rawatan bleh? 
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Post time 23-9-2018 07:48 AM
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bangcak replied at 22-9-2018 11:32 PM
doktor nih kat spital mana? .....nak dtg wat rawatan bleh?
kita bkn doctor..kita tlg je aritu ada emergency dpn mata. awak ada sakit jantung ka?? pegi ijn la.. get well soon |
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