Assalamualaikum, hi semua. First thing aku nak cerita sikit pasal diri aku dgn bf aku. Ok, aku kenal dia dekat kolej. Biasalah kan, orang patutnya belajar aku sibuk dok bercinta. Kahkah! Ok, start serious. Actually dah dua tahun aku couple a.k.a bercintan cintun dgn bf aku ni. Dulu ok standart lah lelaki punya perangai, baik je. Takde langsung buat masalah. Sampai kawan aku pun pelik dgn kami, asal ok je takde gaduh takde apa. Kadang sengaja je kitorang nak timbulkan hal supaya dapat lah jugak merasa gaduh tu. Hahaha gedik kan. Tu saje bergurau. Then lama kelamaan tu hmmmm. And until now kitorang couple, boleh dikatakan everyday kami gaduh. Kadang benda kecik pun, gaduh kemain lagi teruk. Kitorang berdua pun sampai tak faham, apa kena dgn relationship ni. Sebut putus? Rasanya dah banyak kali sangat. Tak dia, mesti aku yang akan cakap putus. Masing-masing dok tuding jari tak nak mengaku salah sendiri. Dia punya perangai aku tak berapa berkenan sebab dulu dia ada kawan-kawan perempuan. Since dia ada kawan kawan perempuan tu aku jadi tak percaya dgn dia dah. Sebab pernah kantoi dua kali dia pergi keluar tak bagi tahu aku. Bila aku cakap balik, dia kata dia dah bagi tahu aku, tapi aku je yg lupa. No! aku tak pernah lupa kot pasal benda benda mcm tu. Mustahil k. Tu yg kantoi, yg tak kantoi? Mesti ada lagi. Memang lah bukan sorang perempaun, tapi aku tak suka dorang. Sebab dorang pernah burukkan aku depan bf aku. That's why buat aku rasa meluat. And effect dia sampai kehari ini. Even dia dah tak berkawan dgn dorang tu semua sebab dah tukar kerja baru, tapi aku rasa still kepercayaan aku ni takboleh nak bagi kat dia 100%. Mana dia pergi skrg aku dah rasa tak percaya je. Rasa was was je manjang. Then benda macam tu juga buat selalu gaduh. Then skrg dia cepat sgt nak marah apa semua. Padahal aku dah berlembut. Kadang salah dia, tanak pun pujuk aku. Pastu dia cakap, dia yg sakit hati ni sape yg nak pujuk. Haih. Kadang fed up. Rasa nak je putus, tapi fikir dah berapa tahun sama sama. Takkan nak biar terkubur macam tu je. hmm. Tapi kalau tahan boleh sakit jiwa. Sayang tu tebal lagi weh Apa nak buat pun aku tak tahu. Kalau ditanya dia, still sayang or tak? Katanye sayang. Aku cakap kalau dah taknak cakap je direct, putus je. Tapi sebok cakap masih sayang apa semua. Tapi hari hari dok gaduh. Ada je benda nak digaduhkan. Pening lah macam ni. Rasa nak buang rasa sayang ni sejauh yg mungkin then boleh bertindak kejam sikit kat org yg tak nak hargai kita ni. Please, i can't move on!
Post time 3-5-2016 04:52 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
akak na share 1 je dik,ex bf akak syaitonirrajim punya cemburu,ktorg kawan 7thun and best part dia tgalkan akak mcm tu je ble jmpe org lain.akak betol2 dikongkong..
So yg heloknya akak tadalah membirah dgn mane2 jantan,kira terjaga gak dr jantan2 lapar puki n yg celakanya so wasting time. Lahanat. Hahaha...so ko pk jela time blajar ni mang bf ko je dpn mata,t da keje nampak yg ada masa dpn ko blah je...cinta mati wat bf ni da ta relevan da
Confirm lah kalau tanyakat sape sape pun tanya pasal kena jolok mesti taknak mengaku kan. Betul tak? hehe. Belum kena jolok lagi. Alhamdulillah masih boleh berfikir. Tu lah fikir lepas kahwin nanti mcm mana lah kan. hm
Kak oi, kite dah kerja dah. Dah setahun. Hehe. Mostly takde lagi jumpa laki lain yg lebih menarik dan tertarik dan ditarik. Hahaha. Tapi harap jugak ada lelaki lagi better, Takpelah, Ada jodoh ada lah. Semua Allah dah tentukan kan. hm
clash je dik. kalau dia btl syg, dia akan carik u balik n berubah sikit pangai tu. kalau u bertahan je, dia akan anggap u sanggup hadap sikap dia. n dia akan pk "ko syg aku lebih dari aku syg ko n ko x leh hidup tanpa aku"
Post time 3-5-2016 06:24 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
Edited by blackwidowbae at 3-5-2016 06:27 PM
Nahh makcik banjer
iolls tambah ajinomoto lagi kikiki
"erfect Nightmare"
Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeahh
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare
Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, oh oooh
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare
Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect
Keep telling myself that it's not worth it (no way)
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting (don't mind hurting)
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare
Eloklaaa dia dah tunjuk tanduk awal-awal..daripada dah kawin baru nak bongkar segala kelaku keji.
Lagi sakit jiwa kan?
But i think,based on your own confession dik...dia dah mula rasa bosan..bosan dengan sikap you yang pada dia mengongkong walau pada pandangan mata you,you just acting as a normal girlfriend-boyfriend thingy. Lelaki ni dik..kalau dah mula bosan,ada dia kesah kau nak merajuk terjun bangunan sekalipun?nak pujuk2? Go to hell lagi ada laaa dia kata!
Post time 3-5-2016 11:37 PMFrom the mobile phone|Show all posts
cutepiee replied at 3-5-2016 04:58 PM
Kak oi, kite dah kerja dah. Dah setahun. Hehe. Mostly takde lagi jumpa laki lain yg lebih menarik ...
Ayt harap ada yg lbh baik tu menandakn ko stay just sbb xde laki lain kn..why not take a break..x yh contact2 ari..rethink balik masa x contact tu..btl2 korang ada future ke tak
Post time 3-5-2016 04:20 PM
Apa nak buat pun aku tak tahu. Kalau ditanya dia, still sayang or tak? Katanye sayang. Aku cakap kalau dah taknak cakap je direct, putus je. Tapi sebok cakap masih sayang apa semua. Tapi hari hari dok gaduh. Ada je benda nak digaduhkan. Pening lah macam ni. Rasa nak buang rasa sayang ni sejauh yg mungkin then boleh bertindak kejam sikit kat org yg tak nak hargai kita ni. Please, i can't move on!
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